A Beautiful Life

To my sweet, funny, talented and special daughter. I dedicate this blog

to you, my beautiful SydniDrew.

   I have loved you since before you were born. I have watched you while you slept; both in life and in death, picked you up when you fell, wiped your tears when you cried, smiled with joy at the sound of your infectious giggle, and marveled at your accomplishments. I have watched countless tea parties with your wonderfully attentive daddy, remembered the most beautiful makeovers on both of us :) and video'd you dancing around the coffee table at least 1000 times. You were the apple of your daddy's eye, and the purest, deepest love I had ever known. You were our beloved, our first born <3
   You loved your electric swing and Shania Twain music! We could put you in the swing crying, and the moment you heard the music, you would stop. It was crazy! It was wonderful! It was all you. You loved Barney, bike rides with mom and dad, trips to Blockbuster in your little car, dance, gymnastics, and all things girl. You were, at times, insecure, like girls can be, afraid to sleepover at anyone's house for the longest, and always, always, carrying your "blankie" that your dear Grammie crocheted for you when you were born...we still have a piece of blankie, tucked away inside my pillowcase for safekeeping.
   Your presence is EVERYWHERE; in our home we shared, in every place we go, in everything we do, and every choice we make. You're on our minds CONSTANTLY, like a favorite song on repeat. Some people, even myself sometimes, think we will move, but I want to try, I want to overcome death. My love for you is stronger than any hold death can have on me! It is almost in defiance of what Satan has stolen from us, that I want to show, that our love, your dad's, bubby's and mine, can overcome what has been lost to us. It was your home, our home together, and there are greater, far more wonderful memories there than the one day in time that for now, has robbed us of all happiness. We picked that house especially for you and Landon, paying attention to the most minute details of how our lives would play out there. It was "the one." It was for you. Everything was for you, and Landon. I just wish somehow you could have seen that, would have seen how special you were to us, how important you were to this family. You completed our circle of four. You will always be here tho, no matter where we go. We were the Lewis4...and we ARE the Lewis4. Nothing will change that, not even death's evil hand.


SydniDrew, what I want, is what I strived for all along...to be a mom that you could be proud of; to be someone you would want to emulate one day as a mother yourself. I pray you approve. I pray He approves.
I sure wish you would hurry up and get Steve Jobs to make a phone or app that works from up there! I sure could use one of your special "guess what mommy" texts about now :(  ALL my love to you Peanut <3